I had to work hard and truly want to change my life to wear a grin like this on my face, which is why I am proud to show it. I spent many of my 38 years walking through what felt like an endless winter. Happiness and joy were visitors that would come by occasionally and sit with me, but the heavy hand of grief and sadness would always show them to the door swiftly. And you know, that’s a hard place to be. It’s a hard place to live and operate your life from. Having to grow up really quick from a young age would dampen anyone’s spirit.
At some point, after you’ve walked around and down the same roads enough times, you come to this dead end and realize that no one is coming to save you. There is no damn knight in shining armour coming to rescue you from your dragons, so you need to suit up and save your own ass. And so you do, because you are a human here on earth with a mission and a purpose and potential waiting to be claimed and embodied. You realize that there are no mistakes, and that your life thus far has all been a school training you to be humble, grounded, and empathetic so that you can walk the next half of your life in love and in service.
When I laugh, I laugh from my heart. It shoots up right from my chest and my throat pushes forth the joy with a cackle that for the longest time I didn’t even recognize as my own. It is the funniest, involuntary reaction from the deepest parts of me. It is my soul laughing because it knows that life is brief, and the vibration of happiness and joy is a palate to reach for when painting the picture your life. It is my birth rite, and it is yours too.
Thank you @elliana_allon for coaxing this cancerian gal out of her crab shell. I’m so happy we found each other in this lifetime! Thank you for making me smile.
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